Being with a vampire is almost as tension-free as being alone, except, of course, for the blood-sucking possibilities.

damn him and being a fucking heart breaker-
or maybe it is me.
It just never seems to work out,
or maybe it is the miles?
I think I am finally out of my funk-
Well, not funk because I have been incredibly happy,
but where I finally feel able to let someone in
maybe
If I can get over space issues.

Anyways, I saw Halloween with my lovely Randy and jesus god.
How utterly disappointing.
We were waiting MONTHS for this movie to come out- and it fucking sucked except for the ever sexy topless Danielle Harris.
meeeeow.
She is worth it...but the story is dull, doesn't even explain why he is so evil, just gratuitous violence- yet you can't take your eyes off it and you have to watch it end.

In short, all good things are wild and free.

[11:19] Arkham Hearssse: like i mean i have been kicking his ass publicly humilating him for 3 years
[11:19] Arkham Hearssse: and he just seems to like me more
[11:19] Arkham Hearssse: we have like a reverse Lucy and charlie brown relationship
[11:20] Arkham Hearssse: like if lucy was a hot blond with an addictive personality...and charlie brown had a bong glued to his hand

HAHAHA...the greatest lady came in yesterday-
definitely perked up my mood.

She was about 50 years old,
maybe a good 350 pounds...
WEARING a rainbow striped tube top with no bra and short shorts-
(in the coldest most windy conditions)
and calling me sunshine.

Cause that is just totally sexy.

So, I got hired full time (I was going thru a temp agency) and a $2 raise! Shit howdy, I could piss myself I am so ecccited.

I am at work: I am bored so now you must read:

- - - 5 YEARS AGO - - -

--How old were you? 15.

--Where did you go to school? Trabuco Hills High School.

--Where did you work? Fucking Wild Rivers in food service...where me and Jamie would constantly thief pizzas and get yelled at by burly mexican women

--Where did you hang out? We were wanderers.

--What was your hair style? Short/black.

--Did you wear braces? Thank god, no.

--Did you wear glasses? Kind of, well I had some but I never really wore them.

--Who was your best friend? Jamie Smith.

--Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend? A lame peice of shit I don't even want to mention.

--Who was your celebrity crush? Jimmy Fallon from SNL.

--Who was your regular-person crush? Question above should answer it.

--How many piercings did you have? Nilch.

--What was your favorite band? Janet Reno and the flaming jellyfish.

--What was your worst fear? Being alone.

--Had you smoked a cigarette yet? Sorta.

--Had you gotten drunk or high yet? No, I was a good kid.

--Had you driven yet? No, I never thought I would get one.

--Had you been to a real party yet? No, I was a good girl.


- - - - HA HA HA!!! LETS SEE WHAT YOU ARE NOW !!!!! - - - -


How old are you? 20

What grade are you in? Nilcho.

Where do you go to school? No where, I work.

Where do you live? foothill ranch, ca

Where do you hang out? hiding out in my casa.

How is your hair style? longer in front, short in the back, and reddish brown.

Do you have braces? no way jose.

Do you wear glasses? nopenopenope.

Who is you celebrity crush? Christina Ricci

Who is your regular-person crush? mylover.

How many tattoos do you have? 2...let it be and my peace sign.

How many piercings do you have? just my ears.

What is your favorite band? Right now? Amy Winehouse.

What is your biggest fear? Living past 25.

Have you driven yet? definitely. My lovely cressida.

Do you work? YEssum, as a receptionist at Merit.

Who is your best friend? JAMIE SMITH. and my daddy is pretty damn awesome.

Who is your boyfriend/girlfriend? I am a secretive little lady. And a bit mischievous.

Have you smoked a cigarette yet? Used to. Thank god pneumonia kicked in and I am butt free.

Have you gotten drunk or high yet? duh.

Have you been to a real party? Yea

Has your heart been broken? a handfull of times. or maybe put a few more hands in there.

Has a lot changed? YES..and it is for the better.

Ohhhh, I am quite nervous-
I hope everything went well in surgery.

Understand once he was a family man
so surely I would never, ever go through it first hand
Emulate all the shit my mother hated
I can't help but demostrate my Freudian fate
My alibi for taking your guy
history repeats itself, it fails to die
and animal agression is my downfall
I don't care 'bout what you got I wanted all

It's bricked up in my head, it's shoved under my bed
and I question myself again: what is it 'bout men?
My destructive side has grown a mile wide
and I question myself again: what is it 'bout men?

I'm nurturing, I just wanna do my thing
and I'll take the wrong man as naturally as I sing
and I'll save my tears for uncovering my fears
for behavioural patters that stick over the years

It's bricked up in my head, it's shoved under my bed
and I question myself again: what is it 'bout men?
My destructive side has grown a mile wide

My car is in the shop, and going to work tomorrow is not looking too great.
But-
I love Jason Segal.
And I adore Freaks and Geeks.
So, it isn't TOO horrible.

I HAVE ANOTHER STALKER.
2 NOW.
AT MY WORK THAT
NEVER
LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE.
UGGGGGGH.

P.S. And it is even worse because one is obsessed with President Bush and wants to go and join the Iraq war. That is his dream? Someone even KIND of liking Bush is just the biggest deal breaker.
gross.

I love 4-day weekends.
Work is getting a little better-
but the fact that I have a stalker is not.
He is constantly hoovering over me-
following me on my breaks,
and making me gag at the sight of him.
I am lonely yet-
I definitely do NOT want a relationship right now.
I just feel too independant to be tied down.

I also love the show joan of arcadia,
and I think I am psychic (at least today).

My birthday was allright, I turned 20 which kind of put me thru a small mid-life crisis.
But it was better than any birthday I have had in the last 5 years at least.
My sister and I went to Disney on Ice (hah, personally I would rather stab myself with a fork but oh well...I love my sister so I had to indulge her)
She won me this creepy devil baby from a claw machine at Dennys that I keep putting in random places in my house to scare my mom.
This devil baby is so scary I wake up in the middle of the night and have to lock it in my closet because of the glazed serial killer looks it gives me.

I keep having these dreams that my legs get amputated in a car crash and I will end up in a wheelchair:(
It is getting so bad I get really panicky when I drive and besides work almost refuse to.

goodnight.

P.S. I love Jason Ritter.

Thank you showtime
for greenlighting another season of DEXTER
otherwise I myself would have had to
strangle, torture, and cut all yo asses into peices.

it's been a week.
over the hump

he makes my heart pitter patter

I had an eeeexcelent nite.
with my homie rachel.
love ya pumpkin tits.

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

× I miss somebody right now.	× I don't watch much TV these days.	✓ I own lots of books.
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.	× I love to play video games.	✓ I've tried marijuana.
✓ I've watched porn movies.	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	× I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes.  (like a sailor)	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

( it goes on... )

IN - T H E - L A S T - M O N T H - H A V E - Y O U
- Had sex: yah.
- Bought something: ...yah?
- Gotten sick: nopenope
- Been hugged: yessss
- Felt stupid: every day here and there
- Talked to an ex : yea, probably
- Missed someone: oh jeez yes.
- Failed a test: nope.
- Danced: alone in my room to janis joplin with the shades down yes.
- Gotten your hair cut: eeep not in 3 months and I work at a salon sad?
- Lied: ahahha

U N I Q U E
- Nervous habits: pushing back my hair
- Double jointed: i wish
- Can you roll your tongue: ahah yes
- Can you raise one eyebrow: can you smellll what the rock is cookin? = yes.
-Can you cross your eyes: for a few seconds
- Do you make your bed daily: yea, of course it is gross if you don't I am a cleeean freak.
- Do you think you are unique: no one is

H A V E - Y O U - E V E R'S
- Said "I Love you": eh
- Waited all night for a phone call: oh god, not anymore
- Sat and looked at the stars: awe with my dadddy.
- Fell asleep under the stars: no, I don't like bugs going in sassy places.

M A N N E R S
- Do you swear/curse?: i curse like a sailor
- Do you ever spit? only if I have to and people aren't paying attention
- You cook your own food?: mostly
- You do your own chores?: duh i am not paris hilton
- Do you like beef jerky?: ewwwwwww, well once every 2 years.
- You're happy with your life?: no
- You own a dog? my zoe.
- You spend your money wisely?: oh god, I wish
- Do you like to swim?: don't know how
- When you get bored do you call a friend?: i hate talking on the phone

D O - Y O U - P R E F E R'S
- Flowers or chocolate? daisys please.
- Gray or black? pink
- Color or black and white photos: black and white def.
- Lust or love?: lust...
- Sunrise or sunset?: sunset i like nighttime
- M&Ms or Skittles? peanut butter m&m's
- Staying up late or waking up early?: who the hell would pick waking up early?
- Being hot or cold?: cold, I'd rather freeze than be warm at all
- Winter or Fall? fall if i am somewhere where the leaves change and you can actually see the whole city turn fallish like the east coast/wisconsin/etttc
- Left or right? right handed
- Sunshine or rain? rain, i hate the sun...well i appreciate it but i HATE it.

M O R E - H A V E - Y O U - E V E R S
- Hooked up in the woods?: I don't want bugs or wood chips in sassy places so NO. but maybe who knows
- Hooked up in the shower?: ahaha yea but it is hard cause I am a short bitch
- Hooked up in the water: not like a pool or anything
- Been Dumped?: yea a long time ago
- Stolen money from a friend?: fuck no
- Slept naked?: every night..i get waaarm.
- Had a crush on a teacher?: :-X
- Seen someone die?: koshka- RIP:(
- Been on an airplane?: unfortunatly but that is why I would take something to knock me out...god bless ambien
- Slept all day?: yah then up all night
- Missed someone so much it hurt?: :(
- Fallen asleep during school? when I was an aid and had nothing to do
- Been lonely? uuuh yea
- Cheated in a game?: card games eeeep.
- Been to the ER?: yess
= Been in a car accident: saw my life flash before my eyes.
- Had detention?: high school
- Cried yourself to sleep?: yea one time or another
- Sung in the shower?: hahaah yea, until I get told to shut the fuck up hahaha
- Kissed a complete stranger?: of course
- Laughed so hard you cried?: yea but not recently:[
- Cheated on a bf/gf?: not really no.

I retract that last statement.


Go to Hell:)

awe,
i love cute boys in eyeliner
named andrew.